Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Week... um... 6 1/2? Check-In


I don't want to talk about it.

But, I'm forcing myself to, because having support is what the blog is all about.

The vacation was great, the weight gain was not. Breanna, I am so jealous you only gained two pounds on your trip. I am not surprised at myself, every time I go on vacation half way through I get so sick of trying to eat healthy and just start eating whatever tastes good. I'm much happier that way, until I get home.

I am having so much trouble getting back into the eating healthy/workout routine. My sleep schedule is still messed up from vacation so I am exhausted and semi-depressed all day with no motivation to work out.

My biggest mental road block is that I hate taking time out of my day to do meal planning, grocery shopping, and most of all, cooking. I really HATE cooking. I am a picky eater, so very few foods actually taste GOOD to me (except desserts, of course). And the more variety you want, the more time it takes to find and test recipes, and log the nutritional info. Hours of work I don't enjoy - not even a little bit - for ten minutes of eating "meh"? So not worth it. There are so many other things I'd rather do with my time! But I don't know how to eat healthy if it's not homemade meals. Sure there's canned soup and Lean Cuisine, but low calorie does not mean a balanced diet - or tasty, blech.

Sigh. I probably can't make the end of the challenge even if I try. I know from experience starting is the hardest part and after a few days the routine will start to feel normal and positive feedback from results will help with motivation. But I am having trouble caring enough to do it. I spent at least ten hours sitting in front of my computer yesterday - no interruptions from cooking or working out - and it was the best day I've had since getting back from vacation.

I miss focusing on and prioritizing things I care about in my life outside of diet and exercise. There must be a balance somewhere but I have yet to find it…

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